sign/sing

I am really quite frustrated at my voice....which at the current moment, doesn't sound like it belongs to me at all.

Yday I couldn't sing at church ... i croaked along for a bit, then lip-sync ... and it got really frustrating coz I really wanted to worship properly, without feeling like i'm paying lip-service (literally).

So in the end, I did what was best in that situation, I song-signed.

I never really song-signed openly before, coz I'm usually quite shy in expressing myself with gestures, even during the Praise and Worship Service at Wesley where song-signing is part of the worship there for the deaf Christians in the congregation, I would visualise the signs, but still choose not to do the actual signing.

But yday at CEFC, being unable to voice, song-signing came naturally to me. It no longer became about me, about my self-consciousness...it became about God, about worshipping God.

And it felt good. It felt like I'm worshipping God with what He has blessed me with. That somehow, those years of learning sign-language can be put to good use ... :)