no regrets.

this afternoon on the way home from church, mum asked me if i had any regrets about my decision after seeing them on friday.

My answer was, "No, no regrets, I just missed them."

Did i have any regrets? I asked myself that question over and over again for the rest of the journey.

and i can honestly say that I have none.

I did what I had to do back then. It was not something easy, but it was what I felt was the right thing to do at that point in time. It was definitely much easier for me, than it was for the 3 of them to do it, so the lot fell upon me. And I knew i couldn't live with myself if I had left with the rest and abandoned them.

it was a choice i made. and when TSL makes a choice, i almost never turn back.

And in many ways, I'm glad I did stay back with them, even though it was for just a few months. It was a struggle every Sunday, and they were my only motivation. But I knew i owed it to them to ensure a proper handover, to walk through the process with them, to sit and plan the year's programme together, to just be there for them during that difficult time. And even if it were to bring peace to my own conscience, i'm glad i did.

and i can't bring myself to return to them.

in many ways, i think my season with them has ended.

i'm always so glad to see how they are now. and i always give thanks to God for allowing me the priviledge of being a part of their lives.

but all of us are moving on. and i'm glad they are. growing into the men and women God has called them to be.

I guess in some ways, I wish God would use me again.