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i've been sharing with a number of friends with regards to my plans for the year.

And i've been getting a variety of feedback.

Am u sure of what it is that u want to do? I'm not sure.
Is it God's calling? I don't know.

Then why do you want to do it? Because I feel that I need to step up in faith. That I need to do something about my spiritual life. That i need to find focus and direction. That while I'm still young, I can afford to take risks and challenge myself. That I need to find out why is it that I keep having this nagging feeling that I'm cut out for greater things...and I really won't know til I try it.

I can tell you honestly, I don't know if its God's will. Perhaps I'm not really in tune with God lately. But then, I believe that what I intend to do is not against His desire either. To seek Him, and know Him and serve Him ... how can it be against His desire for me as I yearn for a closer relationship with my Lord? But whether or not it is His will that I do so, at this time, in this manner, through this method, I don't know.

It is a risk. But I think its a risk worth taking.