Y E P training (part 1)

I'm currently undergoing Y E P leaders & facilitators' training (customized for my school).

What is Y E P ? Check out http://www.yep.sg/

"The Youth Expedition Project (YEP) has been a key programme to encourage volunteerism among our youth since its inception in 2000. YEP supports youth to embark on community service projects with the objectives of building up self-confident youth volunteers who can identify needs and contribute to the community both at home and abroad."

for the past 2 days i've been learning from the experiences from those who've been on Y E P regularly over the years. And I really see their passion for it, despite the complaints of the difficulties they encounter. I hear their enthusiasm at bringing our students into the field where they get to serve and learn through the experiences. I know how service learning can change lives. Being exposed to another side of the world that u've never seen or experience can really change one's perspectives. I know, coz that was what going to Myanmar for missions did to me.

the facilitator said that Y E P is not humanitarian work. Its youth development. Its not about changing the world, its about changing our youths.

Anyway, i'd be camping in Batam tmr nite.

It's not really something I'd volunteer for, honestly speaking. Roughing it out in the wild is really not my cup of tea. I don't get all excited hearing about it. But still, I'm gonna give it a shot. Because deep within me, it's something I've always wanted to do. Roughing it out. If i can't even spend 2 nights on an island, how can I do humanitarian work? how can i bring students on expeditions?

I need people's vote of confidence telling me "you can do it". coz a great part of me wishes i can do it, yet doubts so. haha. I'm gu niang la. I admit k. Even though i always pretend i'm not. but yah. u'noe.

Besides this, I'm also made to facilitate one session at batam. People who know me knows my phobia of teaching/facilitating/anything that requires me to stand before a grp of people and lead. In church, it looks like it comes naturally to me, but don't be fooled. Preparing to lead BS to my small group, or standing in front teaching before the youths, leading worship, or worse still, translating for the pulpit always make me nervous (in various extents) In terms of prepatory work, I'd spend at least 1 week preparing for it. Nothing last minute or i'd freak out. I'm really not cut out to be in the limelight.

But now, i'm only given 1 night to prepare to facilitate this session which I know nuts abt. Social Tree? Economic system? political system? idealogical system??? shit.

Ok, in short. I'm pretty nervous about this trip. Scared would probably be a better word.

But I'm gonna try to pretend I'm all confident and stuff. Didn't some guru said that if we think we're confident, we can pysch ourselves up and then we'd really be confident? (or something like that)

Cannot say cannot until I try right? Haven't try cannot say die rite? Even if try and fail, its still a learning process rite? :)

But oh well. God's power will be made perfect in my weakness. :)