... and so I thought

i came here because of various reasons.

Despite knowing the difficulties and potential struggles that I'd face, still I chose to come here because I desire intimacy and a relationship with God.

Well, I kinda thought that I'd be able to handle all these "differences", and be able to be firm and discerning enough, but really, when you're in that environment, I can't help but feel pressure all around.

Still, I try to want to know more before doing things, because I don't want to be all caught in this whole tangle of following blindly. I don't want to allow the desire to be accepted to draw me into this whole thing without waiting upon the Lord for understanding.

Its quite a struggle really.