it seems as if a chapter has been closed.

but we would be deceiving ourselves if we believe something like that can ever be "closed".

But God will prove Himself to be faithful and true.

Yesterday, i sat down and recounted from the day i received the news for jie on that thursday afternoon, as i sat at the kerb outside the room where my small group was supposed to be meeting, to the day i received her sms on Monday that she has been given the assurance of God's presence through a dream.

i wrote it all down into my journal a day-to-day account of things that happened, news received, emotions felt, actions done, prayers made, and above all, the fingerprints of God written all over them, every single day.

a few significant things happened. God speaking through Pris to me. God speaking to me through scripture. God speaking to me during worship.

I will no longer choose to trust God in difficult times, but that I TRUST GOD. not that i "choose", or i "want to", or i "hope"..but that i TRUST.

God's assurance, His comfort, His peace had been so overwhelming, i can do nothing but give my life to Him all over again. To proclaim that Lord, I give myself to the Potter's hand, and i am willing to go through the fire, because You have proved Yourself to be worth it. You have proved Yourself to be faithful and true.

the trial is not my personal own. It is my sister's and james' portion to bear. and yet, through it, i have entered into a new level of my relationship with God.

yes. God is THAT amazing.