from a distance

i skipped the night safari and went home instead.

all throughout the bus ride, i felt like maybe i shouldn't have gone home. Jie also mentioned that perhaps it was not necessary for me to go home and let them settle their problems themselves.

so when i reached home, i stood there and pray.

and realised i didn't bring my keys.

i could have smsed dad, or ring the bell... but i decided to go to the rooftop instead. and there, i heard them quarelling.

i stood there and listened. and waited.

until i heard her in the kitchen cooking dinner.

i waited somemore.

and then there wasnt anymore sounds. i think they were having dinner.

and so i left. went for a walk at east coast.

DJ came and sat by me to chat.

I walked back home to peek at them. coz dad sent me and sms and didnt reply me when i asked more. No sounds.

and so i took the bus back.

its such a struggle.

i wished i knew how to handle these things.